Listening to Jesus

Hi Pastor John!

A new lesson from Jesus that I want to share.

Thursday evening I had been talking to Jesus about knowing his voice. Jesus has been so patient with me, teaching me how to listen to the spirit and just how to know his voice. Well I was thinking Thursday evening about something I heard you say when I was seeking the holy ghost. What you said was, “That any good thought comes from God and that we can not even have a good thought without God.” 

This led to me asking Jesus “How do I know when my thought is from you?” Most of the time, I can feel when Jesus is talking to me. I just know it is my Jesus. The Lord has taught me to hear and know the still small voice and he has spoken so loudly to me that it shook me on the inside.   Then sometimes there is just a thought that comes out of no where. So that is what I was talking to Jesus about that evening.

Here was how he answered me.

Friday I stopped at the gas station. Now I usually use one of two gas stations in town because I fill up so often. This is a gas station I use often. I got out of the car, started the pump and got back in the car while the gas pumped. I do this every time I get gas. As I sit in the car I had a thought. The thought was, “What if that pump doesn’t stop and runs over?” The thought struck me. I even argued against the thought because the pump always stops. I have never had it run over.

But God.

I wait maybe another minute or so, and get out to put the pump up, which has not stopped and I am now over $20.  When I get out the gas is running over down the side of my car.  It is a lot of gas too. I just stood there with my mouth open. I couldn’t believe it ran over. Then a very large burly man looks right at me, just as calm as can be and says, “That is an expensive lesson huh?” I couldn’t even speak. I was finally able to put my head down and humbly say, “Yes sir it is.” 

You know that feeling when you can just feel Jesus looking at you and you can’t really say anything?  I do. I experienced it Friday.  

I was talking to Lou on Friday night and she said “Isn’t God good? You would not have had that thought, no reason to because it had never happened before.”  I feel like Jesus is fine tuning my hearing!



A Simple Life

Pastor John, 

I liked the Aesop’s Fable you read in the meeting recently about the sheep and the wolves.  May God always let us recognize His voice and not get caught up in the devices of the wolves around us.  God gives us dreams and warnings all along the way.  Let us do our part in all He give us!  And Darren’s song was a knock out!  Wow!  Feelings that run so deep and true.  I love what you said about not wondering about every other way, but just love this and enjoy life!!  There are so many words and things in this world that amount to nothing and get you no where, but if you put all you time and effort in loving God, you WILL get somewhere.  This world is insane.  I love life in the Spirit.  It’s so simple.  


God’s Business

Pastor John,

The other day I was driving along a narrow highway in the northern and more rural part of the County. After a short time, this fellow came up swiftly behind me and as I was going slower, due to the speed limit, he began tailgating me.

As I and my unwelcome shadow continued down the road, I began to considered the danger that he was putting me in.  When he first appeared, I was just uneasy about the situation, but as we pushed on down the road and the minutes mounted, and he remained all but welded to my rear bumper, my concern turned into a real indignation, and I said aloud, (and to no one in particular), “What right do you have to endanger my life?”  Then, my feelings of frustration overflowed the boundaries of self-preservation and I said, “It’s not about me, but every human being!  How dare you endanger another human being’s life?  Any human being?  What right do you have to do that?” I demanded, again to no one.

Then, feeling like I had just expressed a spirit that was not God’s, with fear, I released it, and without a thought I meekly spoke aloud, “Jesus, he could hurt me.”  The Spirit of the Lord spoke back to my heart and said, “That is my business.”

At that moment, all of the tension disappeared. All of my concern for myself, and for mankind, who I was just previously ready to defend against this man, was gone. And I was at perfect peace.

And I had also just been corrected by the Lord, because I am loved🙂

As I continued down the road, with my friend still in tow, I had the opportunity to open up the gift that I had just been given.

“That is my business”, is what the Lord said. And what that meant for me was that it was the Creator’s business, not mine, if I was hurt by another. Not just physically, but hurt in any manner. I am not my own, I am His possession.  Mine is to do the will of God, while navigating the snares and potholes in this world that will entangle me or slow me down. Mine is to keep my mind on Jesus, doing His will with joy, in all things. It is the Lord’s business to preserve His creation, (me)…..or not. I belong to Him, and my welfare is His to consider.

My job is not to defend myself, nor to defend others, not with weapons of this world. My job is not to seek retribution, vengeance or justice. My job is to do the will of Him who bought me.  The place to which the Lord invited me exists.  My elders in Jesus are there. But it takes staying under the anointing to achieve it, because without the power of God to not be moved, the best that I can do is exhibit self-control of feelings that I can’t control.

So, now I know what to do with the world’s insanity.  Miss it altogether while my heart is fixed on God.



Suzi here. 

Often these days I am reminded of Darren’s song that tells us  “Hide in his mercy, hide in his grace, we will hide in our prayers, and  as we give him praise, we will hide in testimonies, and the songs that we sing, we will hide from this world in the shadow of his wing.”  I pray that Jesus helps me (us) do this. This attitude (spirit) that provokes strong reactions can be seen often on FB, or anywhere where comments can be posted or spoken (e.g., the news). It’s a total absence of common sense with no possibility of encouraging solid thinking. It’s best to stay far away from their “road rage”, else any of us get side-swiped.  So, yes, it’s best to for us to do what Darren’s song says.


Tonight’s Excerpt

Pastor John,

When reading tonight’s excerpt from the Father and Son book (below), specifically this sentence: “When the Beast of John’s Revelation does away with the Great Whore, Christianity (Rev 17:16)”,   it allowed me to consider a couple of things. One, a spiritual warfare is already underway against the Great Whore, Christianity.  Christianity is eroding on all sides; it is attacked by those from without, who think to dishonor God with the enforcement of secularism, while collapsing within from moral and spiritual failure.  When the “Beast” makes the lethal blow, it will just be the final cut, that finishes it off….to God’s glory!

But, while Christianity is collapsing, the Gospel remains hidden and untouched by that warfare. It flourishes to, and for, all of those who give themselves wholly to it. It reminds me of the story of Jehoshaphat, who was dressed as the king and consequently drew all of the enemies attention on the battlefield. Christianity’s claim of being the Bride of Christ has drawn all of the enemy’s arrows, while the real Bride, the Spirit filled body of Christ, is at rest.  Thank God for the diversion.

The second thing that struck me is this, all of the folk within that religious system (Christianity), reading about this future figure in the book of Revelation, called the Beast, have no idea that they are sitting within the Great Whore that he is coming to slaughter.  What a mystery, without revelation from God!  Who can know it.  God is using the evil figure of the Beast, to destroy the wicked institution of Christianity. And no one can know the part that anyone or anything plays, without God revealing it!

Even when, (or perhaps if) a time comes in the future when men will understand that the Beast is destroying Christianity, who on the Earth will know that it is God’s will?  Who will know then that it is God’s victory and not God’s defeat?  Who will know that God despised that powerless institution, other than the elect of Christ?

The righteous will rejoice in that day, while others morn her loss.  My, what a hidden thing we have been allowed to see!

Jerry D.


The First Testator

Pastor John,

I would like to get your thoughts on who constituted the Old Testament. Who was the 1st testator?

Thanks so much!

Steven R


Hi Steven.

I assume you are referring to these verses from Hebrews 9:


  1. Now, where a testament is, the death of the testator must be confirmed.
  2. For a testament is in force after men are dead; it has no force at all while the testator is alive.

Of course, Jesus is the Testator of this New Testament.  As to the first testament, there was no human testator; animals were used instead.  The next few verses in Hebrews 9 refer to the ratification of the Old Testament (which took place in Exodus 24):


  1. Therefore, not even the first testament was instituted without blood.
  2. For when every commandment of the law had been spoken by Moses to all the people, he took the blood of bullocks and goats, along with water, and scarlet wool, and hyssop, and he sprinkled both the book itself and all the people,
  3. saying, “This is the blood of the covenant that God has ordained for you.”

 Here is the event from Exodus as Moses recorded it (Ex. 24:5-8):


  1. And he sent young men of the children of Israel, and they offered up young bulls for burnt offerings and slaughtered sacrifices for peace offerings to Jehovah.
  2. And Moses took half of the blood and put it into basins, and half of the blood he threw against the altar.
  3. And he took the book of the covenant and read it aloud in the ears of the people, and they said, “All that the Lord has spoken we will do and we will obey.”
  4. And Moses took the blood and threw it on the people and said, “Behold!  The blood of the covenant that the Lord has made with you. . . .”

So, there was no “first testator”, since a number of animals were used in order to get all the blood Moses needed for sprinkling all that he had to sprinkle.  No man would have had to die in order to initiate a covenant of death, as Paul might have described the Old Testament (cf. 2Cor. 3:7–11).  One might argue that there were “first testators”, since many animals were slaughtered, but  the Bible never refers to them as such.

I am very happy you wrote with a question, Steven.  Hopefully, we will meet someday, either here or in the blessed place that God has prepared for those who love him.

Your Servant in Christ,

Pastor John


John 20:22

Pastor John,

You state in your book “Spiritual Light” that the disciples did not receive the holy spirit until Pentecost as you state they were not converted or born again while they walked with Jesus prior to the cross. You state that the holy spirit could not come to earth until Jesus was glorified. My question is how is that John 20:22 says that Jesus breathed on his disciples and they received the holy spirit after Jesus’ resurrection before Pentecost and before his glorification as he had not yet ascended to the Father?

Joe H


Hi Joe.

Thank you for the question.  I am impressed that you understand what I was saying in my Spiritual Light book.  By that, I know that you have been sincere in your search for the truth.  No one can understand me unless Jesus grants them understanding, and if he grants you understanding, he is inviting you into his counsel.  

As for John 20:22, you have made a mistake that all of us have made at some point in our Bible reading, the mistake of assuming the Bible says what we are thinking instead of seeing what is actually there.  If you will notice, John 20:22 does not say that the disciples received the Spirit; it only says that Jesus told them to receive it.  Here is what is really there:

Also notice, please, that in this scene, Jesus said three things to them.  He breathed on the disciples and told them to receive the Spirit.  He also told them he was sending them to preach just as the Father had sent him, and that if they forgave a sin, then those sins were forgiven.  None of those things happened at that moment.  They could not happen, because the Spirit was not yet given.  The disciples received the Spirit, and so started preaching and forgiving sins on the day of Pentecost.  In God’s kingdom, Joe, there is no such thing as a non-pentecostal preacher because the true gospel can only be preached through the power of the holy Ghost (1Pet. 1:12).

  1. Then Jesus said to them again, “Peace to you.  As the Father has sent me, so am I sending you.”
  2. And after he said this, he breathed out and said to them, “Receive the holy Spirit.
  3. If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; whose you retain are retained.”

There is no questioning the fact that in John 20, Jesus was not yet glorified, for he still had his old, fleshly body.  The glorified body of Jesus, which he received from the Father after his ascension, is described by John in Revelation 1.  Understanding that, one can agree with me (and John) that the disciples could not possibly have received the Spirit in John 20, for John wrote (Jn. 7:37-39) “In the last day, that great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried, saying, If any man thirst, let him come unto me, and drink.  He that believeth on me, as the scripture hath said, out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water.  (But this spake he of the Spirit, which they that believe on him should receive: for the Holy Ghost was not yet given because that Jesus was not yet glorified.)

I love this kind of correspondence Joe.  Please stay in touch.  Thank you again for the question.  I hope this helps bring us closer together in the light of Christ.  Believers’ fellowship in his light glorifies the Father and the Son more than anything else on earth.

Pastor John




“Live Up a Shout!”

Pastor John,

I copied this (below) from an old sermon I was listening to today.  The latter part of the sentence in quotations is just gold.  On the CD, you said there was a fellow, years ago, who labored under the idea that “faster” and “louder” equaled Holier.  And on one occasion, he disturbed the sweet Spirit of God being enjoyed by the saints at the beginning of the meeting by trying to “crank it up” with a loud and fast song that was not led by the Spirit which everyone was already enjoying.

You then told all of us, “We don’t need to ‘crank it up’.  It is either there or it isn’t!   You don’t need to work up a shout, you need to LIVE UP ONE!”


Jerry D.